As a 23 year old, I am a hopeless romantic, I love the magical feeling of meeting someone, the flirty text messages, the endless amounts of time you spend with them learning about one another. It's the best feeling in the world and you're almost sure you are in LOVE. This word scares the shit out of some people. I don't use it loosely but you don't often get to give it to someone you think you truly care about. I say it to my family and close friends, but you don't come across that one person that you feel strongly about that often. However, when you do share your feelings, its super risky. You think you're crazy for being so into them but they have given no evidence that it isn't okay to tell them that you have strong feelings for them.
You believe they will feel the same same way as you do. They give you so much of their time and appear to be so interested in you, how could you not? They manipulate your feelings and essentially invite you into their lives. What angers me the most is that they think you'll be okay after they say, "never mind, I can't do this." But I shake my head at this because they assure you just a minute ago, that they "want you." Yes, people change their minds or aren't ready, but don't say words that stray that way. I am not a game, people are not game boards that you can play. I'm not here to win or lose, I'm here to feel loved and to give love. In the words of Beyonce, "I ain't Sorry" for sharing what I felt after you took back your "love." This is here to remind myself and maybe to others to be cautious of people who are desperate to not be lonely, they think they're in love but they're just using you for the absence of what once was. Also one more thing, you cannot hate that person for doing that to you. Yes, I seem angry and I was. No matter how mad and angry you are, do not hate them. Hating them is the same thing as loving them because it means you still have feelings towards that person. Focus on a future with you being happy and with someone that wants to have you around who deserves your energy, time and most importantly your unconditional love.
Here is a conversation I had with my friend who is also a bad ass queen doing her thing. I expressed to her everything that happened, how i was depressed and mostly confused about the whole situation. I thought her advice could also help whoever because it helped me.
And then a month or so later, my other friend has been dealing with something similar and this is what I told her. It's funny because I love giving advice, I can never seem to apply it to my own life.